Sunday, January 8, 2012

Living in a fog...

My head has many words swirling in it today; foggy, fuzzy, groggy, dazed, cloudy, muzzy, hazy, foggy (wait, did I say foggy already?).

Yes, my blog reading friends, once again I blog about that one thing in the world that we probably all need more of: SLEEP!

I knew before I became a parent I wasn't going to get much sleep. Everyone I talked to who had kids, told me the same thing. "Enjoy sleep now, because once the baby is here you won't sleep for 18 years!".
I have always suffered from insomnia and thus the nickname "Nightowl" so I figured I could hack it. I had a lot of pain during my pregnancy which caused me to be awake a lot at night. Again I was told, "This was the baby preparing me for not getting sleep."
Then Carebear was born.

I quickly realized that insomnia and pain during the night was NOTHING compared to having a baby! NOTHING!

There is a HUGE difference between not being able to sleep and not being able to sleep because of a baby! With a baby, it's not because you "just can't sleep", you can sleep, man can you sleep. You're so exhausted that you could probably pass out ANYWHERE at ANY TIME if given the chance. The difference is that someone won't let you sleep! :( This beautiful bundle of joy you called precious is now the cause of sleepless nights and exhausting days.

It's the mind numbing constant "Wake up Mom, wake up Mom, wake up Mom, wake up Mom." Whether this comes in the form of words (with older kids) or cries of a baby, it's all the same message. You're exhausted and ready to pass out and yet this little bundle of joy is not letting you sleep, night after sleepless night.

Carebear was a terrible sleeper (as I've mentioned before in numerous posts) but before B-Man was born she got into an awesome rhythm where she slept all the way through the night, every night. It was so good, since I was very pregnant and very exhausted. After he was born she continued to do awesome which helped so much with a newborn, but since the big move in September her sleep schedule is all over the place and she often wakes up crying :(
B-Man has never been a good sleeper :( and continues to not be :( we're always in the process of trying new things to help him sleep longer and better but nothing has worked yet. :(

Every time I hear people complain about being tired, or "not getting enough sleep last night" I want to kick them. Enough sleep, what is that? What is enough? Eight hours? Seven? What are these foreign number you people speak of? Because getting more than 3 hours of sleep in a row is what I call a full night sleep these days!

I know this is just a phase and that one day I'm sure our little chicks will sleep better, but until then sleepless nights cause us to live in a constant fog.


cdnkaro said...

Awww:( Hope things improve soon! By the way, love the new layout!

Mother Hen said...

I'm sure it will get better in time, just sucks right now! And thanks for your comment on the layout. I've been playing with it for the past few days, still got loads to play with. LOL